still existing

i'm still here. school and death interrupt everything.

what's strange is when i graduated high school I'd experienced a grand total of 2 deaths; a grandfather, and my best friends father (which was terrible, he had als). Since high school, however, i've experienced a grand total of 7. 3 years and 5 deaths. When will it end? ... and not older people these last three years - well one of them, but the rest were people I grew up with. People my age. And the five I'm counting are only the ones I knew personally, and not all those on the peripheries of my life (which I don't even want to count all those..)

fuck